Or am I going after it for the money?
Looking forward to closing time at the health club when all members and staff had gone home for the evening then I can go into the sauna alone and cry to myself, doubt entering my head , listening to what all the naysayers were saying to me at the time “am stupid”, get a “real job”, ‘stop dreaming”, “you have not got the experience”, Does this all sound familiar?
Then having to walk 3 miles home because I did not drive nor did I have a license and buses were scarce – I fucking loved every minute of it!!
I embraced the suffering, I embraced the fear, I embraced the struggle, and each morning before setting off again to open the health club I looked at myself in the bathroom mirror and said something out aloud to myself “Which I still do to this day” –
“Out of the night that covers me, .Black as the Pit from pole to pole, I thank whatever gods may be
Under the bludgeoning s of chance My head is bloody, but unbowed.Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade, And yet the menace of the years Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate, How charged with punishments the scroll, I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.”
So what is it that keeps you from reaching your goal? Fear of failure? Fear of succeeding? Fear that you will be laughed at and mocked at by your peers? Or maybe you feel unworthy? You don’t think you deserve it.
JUST MAKE A CHOICE – Boredom? or Suffering?
Ladies and gentlemen – boys and girls – “If you want to keep on getting what you are getting, keep on doing what you are doing.”
I can say this to you all – at the end of suffering there will be SUCCESS!!…AND Boredom – Ooo my days…..THIS WILL LAST A LIFETIME.
The clock is ticking – tic toc, tic toc, tic toc!
“I read in a book once that 67 percent of people die when nobody’s looking – what could not be found out was how many people lived when nobody’s watching”
BOREDOM? – SUFFERING?